I love and miss you so much Mum, everyone keeps telling me that it is going to get easy er but it is have the opposite effect. I am not the same with out you in my life Mum, I feel so empty and alone I just wish I could just have one last hug from you. I am tired of putting on a brave face I just need you to tell me what to do next. You will never be forgotten by me ever. I did not really want to do this online memorial but I would do anything to keep you alive in all of us. Thank you for giving me the happiest childhood I could ever wish for. Just wish I had the chance to make it up to you. I really wished I believed that I will see you again weather it be in another life or anything but knowing that I will never see, speak or laugh with you again is causing me so much pain and braking my heart you were and still are the best and biggest thing in my life and I love you with all my heart and hope that you feel no more pain now. I Love you so much Mum thank you for being such a fantastic Mum & friend ALL MY LOVE YOUR SON JASON XXXXX XXXXX XXXXX XXXXX XXXXX